On turning 31.

January 5, 2014

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On Friday evening I told Kenzo, “we should go on a date on Sunday for my birthday”.  He thought we should go on Saturday.  Since it was late Friday night, we didn’t call the one babysitter that we know in Charleston.  So Saturday, after going to a birthday party for a one year old, we got home at about 2pm and decided to call the babysitter and see if she was available to come to our house four hours later.  She wasn’t – surprise surprise.  This was a good wake up call to us – you need to book a babysitter ahead of time AND you need to know more than one babysitter.  It also was reflective of being in a new phase of our lives.  A phase so different than when we were just the two of us.  We ended up going out as a family to celebrate my birthday and it was wonderful, me and my two men out and about in the beautiful city of Charleston that we’ve called home now for seven months.

 

In keeping with tradition, I decided to write one of my biannual, reflective birthday posts.  I just went back and read On Turning 27 & On Turning 29.  It is really cool to be able to look back and see where I was and where I am now.  Two years ago, I was in Peru – living out a dream that Kenzo and I had shared since the beginning of our marriage in 2006.  I wrote about how I was excited for 2012 . . . to explore Peru and also to ” move home and get a puppy and start a family, graduate and start being “professionals” in our chosen areas of study.”  Well, some of that happened.  We never got the puppy, nor did I graduate because less than a month after getting home to Tampa, I was pregnant.  Pregnant with a sweet little baby that would come into our lives 40 weeks and 4 days later and forever change my world.

 

As I turn 31, being a mom is really what I have to write about.  It has been wonderful.  The joy that I experience in watching my son explore his surroundings, laugh at his daddy, take his first steps, is just indescribable.  And so while my daily life doesn’t look quite as exciting as it did two years ago when I was living in South America, it is incredible.  I am thankful for that time then and all of the different experiences that I had before becoming a parent and I am thankful now, to be living a dream that I have wanted since I was a little girl – to be a mommy!

 

Today we went to brunch, just the three of us and while Kenzo was away from the table I was talking to James (who is 9.5 months old) and telling him how wonderful my past year has been because of him.  I just squeezed him and hugged him and thanked him for being my little boy – and told him that he was the best birthday gift I could ever ask for.

 

I have loved getting to be at home with James this year.  While there are some really long, monotonous days, there is a lot of reward too.  Tomorrow a lot changes for me.  I start my 40 hour per week internship to finally finish the Masters in Mental Health Counseling that I wrote about in “On Turning 27.”  That was four years ago!  By the time that I graduate in May, it will have taken me longer to get my masters than it did to get my bachelors.  But, I have been pretty busy . . . since I started the degree at the end of 2009 – I started a photography business, financially supported us while Kenzo went to med school, lived in Peru for a year and had a child (as well as did all of the work that needed to be done to finally be almost ready to graduate).  So, I am cutting myself some slack for it taking forever.  I am nervous and anxious to be away from my baby for 8 hours a day.  People have told me that it will be harder for me than him to leave him at daycare, and I believe them but I guess I just hope that I soaked in the moments long enough.  It is only a semester and then I will be home again with him . . . but you can just keep me in your thoughts and prayers because that is really what is going on with me today as I write this.  I am preparing myself for a big change – one that is good and necessary (I cannot tell you how excited I am to finally be finishing) but also one that is going to be hard.

 

So as I reflect on turning 31, I just have to say that life is good.  That I am happy and  that I am a little scared of the next 17 weeks of my internship.  I am enjoying my 30s thus far and especially loving being a mom.

 

And I guess that’s it for long, reflective birthday posts . . . until two years from now.  Thanks for reading.

 

Love,

Janie

 

 

 

 

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2 Responses to “On turning 31.”

Grams - January 7, 2014

I am delighted with your latest Birthday Blog. you and Kenzo are advancing into this uncertain world with faith and courage as you build a love-filled family for yourselves and James. With best wishes and great love. Grandmama

Shweta - March 5, 2014

Lovely pictures ! Your baby is beautiful.. Congratulations :-) and belated birthday wishes ! I know how you feel. I’m turning 31 this weekend and this year my 11 month old accompanies me ! :-)

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